Im Finding It Really Hard To Deal With :( Sum Plz Help Me, Im 18yrs Old With Really Bad Anxiety?
I’m not in anyway suicidal, im the complete opposite. Ive been having alot of pains for over 1month now. Ive had ecg’s on my heart, chest xray, upper abdominal ultrasound, blood work. I also had a pap smear and pelvic exam and have urinated blood ever since. Urine was cultured, no bacteria just blood. I had a CT csan on my urinary tract and nothing is wrong and i also had a pelvic ultrasound. Nothing seems to be wrong with me.
I do have a bad back which i go to physio for, i also gave birth naturally 4 months ago.
All im being told is that i have anxiety which i beleive i do because i think im dying from some disease there not finding.
All my body aches. If i hav a headache i think i have a tumor or meningitis. If my back aches i think its kidney failure (although my kidneys have been checked3times), i think i have aneurysms throughout my whole body!!
Today i had a tooth filled, so ive had a headache and feel a little dizzy but i think its something major.
I work myself upa nd i want it to stop. I look after my son fine but i get on the computer every chance i get and self diagnose and it makes it worse 
Im reallys ick of feeling like this, like now i have a pulse in my stomach so i think its an aorta anyerism? IS it?? Im only 18 and no history of that sort of stuff in my familya nd no diseases at all.
I was given a tablet for my anxiety but i dnt want to tak eit cos its also an anti depressant. Is there any meds specifically for anxiety?? (Im in aust) I was also given Valiums but im scared to take them, i keep thinking they will relax me too much and ill die.
Am i mental?? Im just scared of dying young. I just wanna be pain free and live my life and enjoy my baby.
Sum1 plz help me
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Personally, I don’t think drugs are the answer, though it is true that you do have severe anxiety symptoms. I went through similar experience with my child, except that in my case it was about my child and not me. I think your feelings are an exageration of something natural – it is very natural to worry that we might die or become sick and that our precious baby will lose their mother. It is a HUGE responsibility to become a mother. That responsibility is like nothing we have ever had before. Some people find that pressure hard to get used to, especially with all the hormonal changes following birth and the lack of sleep. It sounds like you had a good birth, though, so that will help.
What you have is a phobia, an exagerated fear of something that it is natural to be afraid of (dying young). I had a phobia about my child dying which took some years to go away. I think a lot of parents have very strong fears. Fears are natural, but if they get too strong and overpower us they are a major hassle.
I think that looking on the internet and going to appointments is compusive and addictive for you, so you should try not to do those things for a certain amount of time. As you said, the internet thing is making you feel worse.
I think spiritual practice is a good idea for anxiety. If you have a religion, you should make use of whatever practices or beliefs (prayers or chanting, or whatever) there is to help you.
If you believe in fate, you can remind yourself that ‘what will be will be’ and that whatever happens that seems bad can also often have good in it – even sicknesses and death can have good in them, according to many beliefs.
Also, most importantly, do you have support? You should spend as much time as you can laughing and having fun, and doing things that take your mind off your fear and troubles. Instead of going to doctors maybe take the time to go and get a massage or do a gym class or a yoga class or something positive. Sleeping is good for anxiety, and hard for new mothers of course..
These days, there is a pill for everything – but I think drugs are a last resort.
Even if you are going crazy, you are not crazy!, because life is certainly scary and motherhood can put a lot of pressure on you. You haven’t been a mother for very long. Quite probably if you can just get through this next few months, you will find things ease off a bit. The first year of a baby’s life is really intense for the mother.
No matter what you do, I feel sure that it will settle down in time as you adjust to a new phase in life.
[Hi Danii.. I took out that part of my answer about wanting what we fear sometimes, since it didn't relate to your question.]
Hope some of what I said is of some use to you.
Okay first of take your anti depressants and your valiums… beacause they will make you feel better…
You have some pretty exteme anxiety, so you need this medication if you want relief from it
I have suffered bad anxiety like this, and also had best friend who use to read medical books for hours. he once thought he had ovarian cancer LOL and hes a male…
Hi,
I suggest u do some meditation { raja-yoga from Brahma Kumaris} which will first of all eliminate anxieties, then latter decide whether u need any medication or not.
regards
You’re not mental at all. This sounds to me like anxiety/depression. All the physical things you feel as psychosomatic – that is, they’re physical expressions of your inner pain.
Don’t worry about antidepressants – they don’t actually make you high or anything… just get your chemicals back up to normal levels.
Lots of women get depressed after giving birth, you’re not alone! All the best.