I’m not done with chapter one, but it starts as she dreaming in chapter 1….
oh and btw if its in parenthesis its supposed to be in italics
HERE IT IS:
PREFACE:
I push my legs faster. They can’t find me. I won’t let them. (You run fast Sarena, but not that fast. You cant outrun them. And you know it.) Of course I knew it. They had cars and I only had my two feet and a ten pound backpack slowing me down. I was exhausted, but I knew I couldn’t stop now. I had to get of town first. (That won’t be too hard, being as we live in Colusa, one of the smallest in California.) It was true. This town had only a 1.7 square mile area. I could easily be out in seven short minutes. If I didn’t have my backpack that is. Now it would take longer. (You shouldn’t have started sprinting first dumbass.)
I kept running, keeping alert at all times. If anybody saw me they’d tell Sharon. I knew it. They wouldn’t do it to hurt me of course, they just think I was going crazy again. Not that I ever had, but on many accounts I had tried to escape my mother’s grasp and failed. And the next day when everyone was asking what happened, Mother would simply say, “Oh Sarena was just having one of those days again, but she’s fine now.“ She had always found me. Always. But not this time. I won’t let her.
(I hear something. Quick! Hide!) I looked around. There was nowhere to hide, no bushes, no trees, nothing. (I know where you can hide, and so do you.) No. I wasn’t going to hide in there. I’d almost rather be caught. (It’s a car, and its coming closer. I can see the headlights. You have to Sarena. There’s no other option besides getting caught, and as far as I’m concerned that’s not an option anymore.) I realized she was right. Where else was I supposed to hide?
So I crept through the shadows until I was right in front of it. I opened the lid and a gush of malodorous air blew in my face. (Don’t think about it. Just do it. Hurry!! They’re getting closer!) So I plugged my nose and jumped in. I heard squishing and crunching, but I ignored it. If I got out or made too much noise I’d be back in Mother’s grasp yet again. And that was not going to happen. I put my hand down and it landed in something cold and lumpy. I picked up my hand and smelled it. Rotten milk. Perfect. It could have been worse and least it wasn’t dirty baby diaper. Before I knew it the car was gone and I was finally free to climb out of the dumpster.
I kept my vigilance up, constantly looking for cars, or nearby people. I was out of the neighborhood area of the town, and since it was past midnight, I may as well been out of town already. I had one last errand to run before I could truly be out town though. All the stores were closed and nobody was outside. It was like the town wasn’t even there. I snuck behind the town’s Taco Bell and checked for boxes of the that had been mistakenly, and miraculously, left out at night. But, of course there wasn’t. Luck just wasn’t my thing. Now that I knew for a fact that the only food I had was what I managed to take from the fridge at home I ran and ran, until I knew the small town of Colusa was far behind me.
Chapter 1:Free
“Mommy?” I ask, “Why are you crying? Are you mad at me?”
“No.” She says, “I’m not mad at you Sarena.”
“Then how come you won’t tell me?”
I had needed my birth certificate to transfer to a new school, but when mommy had told me to look for it, I didn’t find mine; I found somebody else‘s. My twin sister‘s. Sabrena Rasmussen’s. I didn’t even know I had a sister. I was an only child after all. How could I have a sister? I was confused so I asked Mommy. Instead of answering she started to cry. Had I upset her? What had I done?
“I’m sorry Mommy.”
“It’s okay. It’s not your fault you were just curious. I would be too. So, do you want to hear the story of your little baby sister?”
“Yes. I do”
“Well, for nine months your daddy and I waited for you two to come. About five months into my pregnancy the doctor said I was having twins. I was so happy. I didn’t want to wait 3 more months for you two. So when three months later came I was overjoyed. But something went wrong. When you were in the womb, Sabrena died. Your umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat. She had suffocated. My life was over.”
Mommy was tearing up now, her face was bright red as a single tear fell down her cheek. But right now I didn’t care. Was that who was constantly in my head? The unknown girl that could have been so close to me, but I killed? Was that why she was bugging me? Was I a murder?
“Mommy? Is it my fault Sabrena died?”
I woke with a start.

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